You make me happy. You make me feel complete. You are the love of my life...
I know that you don't love me and there is nothing that I can do. After four years of consistently trying to win your heart, I finally able to realize that I don't stand a chance. It took me a great deal of pain before I relize that. I will not try anymore. I was not able to make you love me when I still deserve it, what more now that I no longer do?
So I will keep on running. I will use the world as my playground. I will put you in the darkest corner of my mind. I will not listen to my heart. I will enjoy life. I will take everything it could offer. If I couldn't have my happiness, then that's fine. I'll survive. I will run and hopefully reality will not able to catch me.
About Me
- *Gladys*
- Makati, Philippines
- I am extremely complex. It would take a genius to comprehend such thoughts running in my mind. I am not a psycho though or at least not yet... I have no interest in killing people... I mean not all people, just some. I was not even once considered as simple. I may be an angel or a devil, both characters are residing deep within me. It only depends to the person I am with to bring which character suited to deal with him. I have huge problem in expressing what I really feel specially to those I really care about. I tend to say " you're such a stupid klutz" when I really mean "take Care". I prefer to be cynical when it comes to Love, but I'm a very positive person to almost everything else. I don't hold back negative thoughts, I always say them out loud =) I am constantly trying to change for the better. It is harder than it seems but at least I'm doing something about it
August 23, 2010
August 21, 2010
My Birthday
It's my birthday and I feel like I am going nowhere.
All I want is him... and obviously he doesn't want me.
The love of my life is not even aware how deeply I long for his affection.
He is oblivious of the pain I feel every time he fails to notice my existence.
I love him so much that it really hurts.
I love him and I wish he is mine.
I love him and I wish he knew...
August 3, 2010
RANDOM QUOTES
Ang pag-ibig, parang kape.
pag nasobrahan sa granules, pumapait..
LESSON:don't give too much para sa huli hindi ka bitter..
pag nasobrahan sa granules, pumapait..
LESSON:don't give too much para sa huli hindi ka bitter..
*****
how do we define an unforgettable moment? its wen the person you like smiles at you for seconds, and you.. spend the rest of the minutes and hours thinking about it..
*****
LOVE is a subject i can't seem to pass..i take it's exams..i do it's projects..i do some extra efforts for it..i make it a priority..and still, i FAIL, get HURT, FALL DOWN, lose myseLf, look CRAZY..but someh0w bey0nd all the fall d0wns..i still find myself ENROLLLING.
****
how do we define an unforgettable moment? its wen the person you like smiles at you for seconds, and you.. spend the rest of the minutes and hours thinking about it..
*****
LOVE is a subject i can't seem to pass..i take it's exams..i do it's projects..i do some extra efforts for it..i make it a priority..and still, i FAIL, get HURT, FALL DOWN, lose myseLf, look CRAZY..but someh0w bey0nd all the fall d0wns..i still find myself ENROLLLING.
****
August 2, 2010
I HATE YOU
hate you..
because everytime i'm with you
i'm not my usual talkative and perky self
you make me appreciate silence...
as you presence envelopes me
i hate you..
because you're the master of disguise
from being an idiotic jerk
to a sweet, sensitive guy
you never fail to make me smile
to think that you were the first to make me cry...
i hate you
because you complete me
and now that you're gone
i can never be whole again..
i hate you
because everytime we talk i feel right
but when i hung up i feel so miserable
coz i know i can never be as happy as then
caz i know things aren't the same
i hate you
because each moment you look at me
with those sweet, hopeful eyes
i begin hoping too.. without knowing
how long this "hope" would last
i hate you
because you're there and i'm here...
and even if i try to deny it... or even forget it
in your own little way
you make me fall in love with you again
though i know i shouldn't
and you make me realize
how much i still am...
because everytime i'm with you
i'm not my usual talkative and perky self
you make me appreciate silence...
as you presence envelopes me
i hate you..
because you're the master of disguise
from being an idiotic jerk
to a sweet, sensitive guy
you never fail to make me smile
to think that you were the first to make me cry...
i hate you
because you complete me
and now that you're gone
i can never be whole again..
i hate you
because everytime we talk i feel right
but when i hung up i feel so miserable
coz i know i can never be as happy as then
caz i know things aren't the same
i hate you
because each moment you look at me
with those sweet, hopeful eyes
i begin hoping too.. without knowing
how long this "hope" would last
i hate you
because you're there and i'm here...
and even if i try to deny it... or even forget it
in your own little way
you make me fall in love with you again
though i know i shouldn't
and you make me realize
how much i still am...
Have You Ever...?
Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are
right beside you and yet you can never have them.....when the moment you
can't feel them under your fingertips you miss them?
Have you ever wondered which hurts the most; saying something and wishing
you had not,or saying nothing and wishing you had?
I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be
afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your
heart
... but if you don't, you might break theirs.
Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid
of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides who it
likes and who it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it
on its own.... when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.
Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that
other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled because
we
are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not
care as much, or at all.
Have you ever loved someone and they had absolutely no idea whatsoever?
Or fell for your best-friend in the entire world,
and then sat around and watched him/her fall for someone else?
Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of
rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid
....afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of
what will
be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie.... the thing we fear
grows stronger.
Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person
who has to look back and wonder what they would have, or could have had.
No one waits forever...
right beside you and yet you can never have them.....when the moment you
can't feel them under your fingertips you miss them?
Have you ever wondered which hurts the most; saying something and wishing
you had not,or saying nothing and wishing you had?
I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be
afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your
heart
... but if you don't, you might break theirs.
Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid
of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides who it
likes and who it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it
on its own.... when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.
Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that
other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled because
we
are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not
care as much, or at all.
Have you ever loved someone and they had absolutely no idea whatsoever?
Or fell for your best-friend in the entire world,
and then sat around and watched him/her fall for someone else?
Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of
rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid
....afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of
what will
be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie.... the thing we fear
grows stronger.
Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person
who has to look back and wonder what they would have, or could have had.
No one waits forever...
THE ART OF LETTING GO
That person is gone.
Why do we have to part while
the love is still there?
Why do we have to suffer?
Why do we have to cry when
somebody bids goodbye?
Why do beginnings have an end?
Why do we have to meet
only to lose in the end?
There are questions left unanswered,
words left unsaid, letters left unread,
poems left undone, songs left unsung,
love left unexpressed,
promises left unfulfilled.
In a relationship,
one of the hardest things to do
is saying goodbye and letting go.
It is as hard as breaking a crystal
because you’ll never know when you
will be able to pick up the pieces again.
More often than not, they who go,
feel not the pain of parting:
it is they who stay behind that suffer,
because they are left
with memories of a love
that was meant to be,
a love that was.
At the beginning and at the end
of a relationship,
we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone.
Unfair as it may seem,
but that’s the way love goes.
That’s the drama, the bittersweet
and the risk of falling in love.
After all, nothing is constant but change.
Everything will eventually come to its end
without us knowing when,
without us knowing how,
without us even knowing why.
And we must forget not because we have to
but because we have to.
In letting go, sorrows come
not as a single spy but in battalion.
It seems that everywhere you go,
everything you do,
every song you hear,
every turn of your head,
every move of your body,
every beat of your heart,
every blink of your eye and every breath
you take always reminds you of him.
It’s like a stab of a knife,
a torture in the night.
Funny how the whole world
becomes depopulated
when only one person is missing.
Just imagine,
there are billion people on earth
and yet it seems you feel lonely
and empty without the other.
I don’t know if it’s worth calling an art,
but letting go entails
special skills sparkled
with a considerable space and time.
Time heals all wounds but it takes
a little push on our part.
Acceptance plays a part.
Not all love stories end with
“…and they live happily ever after.”
Sometimes we have to part because of
circumstances beyond our control.
We have to suffer if it would
mean happiness for others.
We have to cry to
temporarily let go of the pains.
Every beginning has its end
like every dawn has its dusk.
It’s something we can’t control,
something we had to live up.
It’s over.
That persons gone. But life has to go on.
Goodbye doesn’t always mean forever.
There will always be a place and time
where questions will be answered,
words will be spoken,
letters will be read,
poems will be recited in the night,
songs will be sung in harmony,
love will be expressed in solitude and
promises will be fulfilled.
Somewhere. Somehow. Someday.
Hopefully!!!!!!!
Why do we have to part while
the love is still there?
Why do we have to suffer?
Why do we have to cry when
somebody bids goodbye?
Why do beginnings have an end?
Why do we have to meet
only to lose in the end?
There are questions left unanswered,
words left unsaid, letters left unread,
poems left undone, songs left unsung,
love left unexpressed,
promises left unfulfilled.
In a relationship,
one of the hardest things to do
is saying goodbye and letting go.
It is as hard as breaking a crystal
because you’ll never know when you
will be able to pick up the pieces again.
More often than not, they who go,
feel not the pain of parting:
it is they who stay behind that suffer,
because they are left
with memories of a love
that was meant to be,
a love that was.
At the beginning and at the end
of a relationship,
we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone.
Unfair as it may seem,
but that’s the way love goes.
That’s the drama, the bittersweet
and the risk of falling in love.
After all, nothing is constant but change.
Everything will eventually come to its end
without us knowing when,
without us knowing how,
without us even knowing why.
And we must forget not because we have to
but because we have to.
In letting go, sorrows come
not as a single spy but in battalion.
It seems that everywhere you go,
everything you do,
every song you hear,
every turn of your head,
every move of your body,
every beat of your heart,
every blink of your eye and every breath
you take always reminds you of him.
It’s like a stab of a knife,
a torture in the night.
Funny how the whole world
becomes depopulated
when only one person is missing.
Just imagine,
there are billion people on earth
and yet it seems you feel lonely
and empty without the other.
I don’t know if it’s worth calling an art,
but letting go entails
special skills sparkled
with a considerable space and time.
Time heals all wounds but it takes
a little push on our part.
Acceptance plays a part.
Not all love stories end with
“…and they live happily ever after.”
Sometimes we have to part because of
circumstances beyond our control.
We have to suffer if it would
mean happiness for others.
We have to cry to
temporarily let go of the pains.
Every beginning has its end
like every dawn has its dusk.
It’s something we can’t control,
something we had to live up.
It’s over.
That persons gone. But life has to go on.
Goodbye doesn’t always mean forever.
There will always be a place and time
where questions will be answered,
words will be spoken,
letters will be read,
poems will be recited in the night,
songs will be sung in harmony,
love will be expressed in solitude and
promises will be fulfilled.
Somewhere. Somehow. Someday.
Hopefully!!!!!!!
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