Something Sweet...

I was watching 'How I Met Your Mother' earlier, great show by the way... and there was this scene that I find extremely sweet,  Amazing and Sweet.... =)

Check it out!

A New Love?

People say that when you love someone, or if that someone is important to you, you will fight for that person to stay in your life. He is important to me... That's undeniable. I may even be in love with him but fight for him?

I learned it the hard way the painful lessons in love's battlefield.  In every war, there's always casualties. Most often than not, it is my heart that takes the beating.

I am a broken soldier, scarred, battered... Despite all that, I'm still willing to once again shed blood if my beloved would ask me to.

So to answer such question if I will fight for this oh so wonderful person, will I fight to keep this sunshine? Sure! But he has to ask me.

A one sided battle is already lost even from the beginning. I may be in love but I am not stupid. I'm sorry but that, I cannot change. I'd rather let you go now while I still can.

Love, Lies, and Alibis

What I am having a great deal of confusion is the fact that some people seems to be able to just have an on and off switch to their emotions. Today they love you, will do everything for you, will give up anything for you, offer you marriage and commitment, offer you 'forever' and the next day... he can just discard everything. When a great relationship ends suddenly, one can't help but think and look back, one can't help but wonder in the story that came to an end, which among them are lies? Had it been a lie from the very beginning? If it was indeed a great love like he said so, how can it be ended that soon? I don't even see him flinch when he lied to my face about where he was the night before.  Am I just really over reacting  If I'm still having doubts now even after more than a decade since I lost a great love? Can someone blame me if I really think it over before I dive to that pit of emotion whirlpool? Maybe I am too scared to love again, maybe I just don't need it, maybe I'm not ready or maybe I just haven't met someone who can make me take that risk again, someone worthy of that risk.

Looking back at 2012

My 2012 was one of my 'good year.' If I will compare it to 'suck-a-lot 2011,'

2012 is my Chase career's turning point. After more than two years of 'only God knows how to call it' my life finally turn for the better.

Looking back, I've made a lot of wrong choices but hell! It feels so right at that time so... KEBS!!
It's like 'shopping' while you are at it, every fiber of your body is shouting for joy, the ecstatic feeling is overflowing.  That's why even if you have to skip 'lunch' or some 'breaks' you just don't care.

Most of my 2012 was more of a routine. It was okay. It was good.

My 2013 has just started and if 2012 is good I will see to it that 2013 is better.

My Realization

I saw the love of my life today... He lost the 'boy next door' look. He no longer looks like the 'star jock' I fell in love with... But ironically, he still managed to take my breath away. Right there and then I realize why most of my relationships never worked out, no matter how hard I try, Right there I am staring at the very reason why it will never work out.

I may have loved every guy I've been with but it can never ever compare to what I feel to this man.

For him, I will be more than willing to change myself and be at peace with it. For him, I won't mind wasting hours to travel just to be with him for a minute or two. For him, I would give up my pride just to keep him by my side.

If I can only feel even half of the love I have for this man, I would surely been married by now...too bad I don't... Too bad I can't

ALLY MCBEAL QUOTES

Ally McBeal  is one of my most favorite TV shows  EVER! A perfect combination of laughter and tears.
I already lost count of how many times this TV show made me cry. Who will not fall in love with Larry Paul (played by the dashing, Mr. Iron Man himself, Robert Downey Jr) and mourn for the death of Billy Allen Thomas? Too bad the show was cancelled after it's fifth season and don't you just hate the idea she ended up with no one?? well, still... it's a darn good show. Here are some quotes from the show.

“There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn't expect you to understand that, or even believe it, but trust me, there are some loves that don't go away. And maybe that makes them crazy, but we should all be lucky enough to end up with somebody who has a little of that insanity. Someone who never lets go. Someone who cherishes you forever." –Ally

"I think that I need to believe that it works--love, couple-hood, partnerships. The idea that when people come together, they stay together. I have to take that with me to bed each night, even if I'm going to bed alone." - Ally McBeal

"The truth for me [is that] our friendship is the greatest thing I got going. I cherish it. And to put an honesty boundary on it... I don’t want to. So free fall with the truth and hope we both survive." - Ally to Billy

The world is no longer a romantic place. Some of its people still are, however, and therein lies the promise. Don't let the world win, Ally McBeal. (John)

"We make so few promises to ourselves as we grow up. And one of them is that on our wedding day, we walk down the aisle with somebody we love. Somebody who does... make your heart bounce, I guess. And there are some promises, Harry, that I think we just have to keep." - Ally McBeal

"I don't condemn you for wanting somebody to love. I guess I just reject the notion that your life is empty without a man." - Ally McBeal

"Do you know what the most common insanity going today is? It is the idea that love will just come to you, even if you do nothing. 'Oh, the right one will come along. It will happen. You just wait.' Who the hell came up with that?!" - Ally McBeal

"Today's gonna be a, a less bad day, I can feel it. Sometimes I wake up and I just know everything's gonna be... less bad." - Ally McBeal

"Getting dumped isn't exactly a show of penance. If it were I'd be Mother Superior." - Ally McBeal

"It can't last forever, of course not. But who made up the rule that the best loves do?" - Ally McBeal

"Even if I knew my feelings, the last thing I would do is let myself trust them." - Ally McBeal

"There's nothing lonelier than being with the wrong guy." - Ally McBeal

My Someone....

I want someone who will engage me to a combatant argument and still choose to stay at the end of the day.
I want someone who knows the 101 personalities I have in me and be able to accept them all.
I want someone I will never get tired looking at.
I want someone that I can't live without. someone who will find it hard to breathe if I'm not at his side.
I want someone who knows how much big of a mess I am, how neurotic I can be and still choose to be with me.

My someone doesn't have to have looks of a movie star, no need to have a body of a model. You don't even need to have a car.

All I want for my someone is to love me and to STAY.