I know I look pathetic... but then again, Do I have a choice?
Here I am, I will continue my life, I will continue to smile, I will go on with my life... That I owe to myself.
But if you could see what's inside this pathetic, disgusting, ridiculous heart of mine, you will see that I am stuck to where I am. I don't see myself with someone longer than a couple of months. I just can't play a role that long.
I love YOU, ONLY YOU!
How I wish I can let you know, voice it all out, take a chance again but I CAN'T! You've hurt me too much before. I can no longer take the pain of being rejected over again.
I choose to play around. I choose to pretend. I choose to stay away. I choose all that, how I wish I can choose not to love you anymore as well... so maybe, just maybe... I can be happy too.